Answer:
he is struggling with the love of his family and the desire to do what he feels he must do with his life as a person to help people
Explanation:
the banner of purpose = what I intend to do with my life is out there where all can see it. i could die tomorrow or be killed today. metaphorically speaking, the banner floats - a flag flying proudly in the breeze. he does not want his children to be fatherless as he was but he must fulfill his ultimate calling which is to die for his country if needed
